Go Ahead

Touch me, do it
Insult me, do it
Disrespect me one more time
Go ahead
I'm going to go off on you
Like a ticking bomb
I'm waiting

Rap your arm around my waist
Go ahead
Watch me rip it right off

Text me one more time
Say you wanna see a picture
Go ahead
The only thing you'll see for the next week
Is the imprint of my fist on your face

Hit my butt one more time
Go ahead
My foot will do the same to yours

Touch me, do it
Insult me, do it
Disrespect me one more time
Go ahead
I'm going to go off on you
Like a ticking bomb
I'm waiting

I'm sitting here
Ho ahead
Make me mad

Be a real man
Don't be a stupid little boy
Back off while you've got the chance
This is a warning

Touch me, do it
Insult me, do it
Disrespect me one more time
Go ahead
I'm going to go off on you
Like a ticking bomb
I'm waiting

Moderately Depressed

Moderately Depressed
A side of panic attacks
Time to give it a rest

It's not so severe
That I hate life
But that's what I fear

It's not so mild
That I can just ignore it
My brain is going wild

I'm losing all my interests
Nothing really makes me happy
Happiness- I miss it.

Fake smiles and fake laughs
Can you tell that somethings wrong?
Good things- they never last

Moderately Depressed
A side of panic attacks
Time to give life a rest

I don't

I hate this. I hate this.
Do you know how much I hate you?
I hate this. I hate this.
So much I think I love you.

I can't stand it. I can't stand it.
I can't stand to be around you.
I can't stand it. I can't stand it.
How all I want is to be with you.

I don't like this. I don't like this.
Do you know how much I don't like you?
I don't like this. I don't liek this.
All I feel is love for you.

I don't want it. I don't want it.
I don't want to be around you.
I don't want it. I don't want it.
I don't want to want to be with you.

Perfectly Content

I saw your face again
Everything went wrong
I was perfectly content
With everything until then
You brought back memories
That haven't been explored in so long
Time passes by so fast
I cant understand it
But I know that I hate it
I want to go back in time
I want to relive my life
Help me
Help me do this
If it wasn't for seeing you again
If it wasn't for hugging you again
If it wasn't for hearing you again
I'd still be perfectly content

......

I walked right past you
And sat by the door
You looked at me
Then looked some more
I looked back at you
Then finally
You walked over
And sat with me
I got closer
Then took off my hat
I turned to you
Put my arm behind your back
I was finally getting to hold you
I was finally getting to be with you
But then I woke up
And I wasnt sure what to do
I should have known
It was just a dream
You're so far away
We won't ever be

Why cant I love you?

Why is this so hard?
Why cant I love you?
Why can't everything just be,
The way we want it to?

Why cant I feel,
The way Im supposed to feel?
When we noth know,
This is the real deal

We know this is how it is.
We're suppposed to be together.
This is the right way.
We're supposed to last forever.

You love me so much.
And we're perfect for each other.
I want to love you too.
We belong with one another.

Why is this so hard?
Why cant I love you?
Why cant everything just be,
The way we want it to?

I want to cry

I want to cry
I dont know why
But I dont know what to do

My hearts has died
I dont know why
But I just want to see you

I want to lie
I dont know why
But I want to be there too

I want to fight
I dont know why
But I'd do anything for you

I want to cry
I dont know why
But I dont know what to do

Abandonment

A product of Abandonment
Thats what I am. Thats who I am.
Thats all I'll ever be.
Creater of Abandonment
Thats what I do. You're who I do it to.
Thats all I'll ever do.

You come to me to be with me.
But I'll leave you in the end.
Not for something better,
But for something in my head.

I go to you to be with you.
But, you'll leave me in the end.
Everyone does it, you'll do it too.
Maybe for a reason thats totally pretend.

Abandon Me, Abandon You.
Abandon both us two.
Abandon her. Abandon Him.
Abandon both of them.

A product of abandonment.
Thats what I am. Thats who I am.
Thats all I'll ever be.
Creater of abandonment.
Thats what I do. You're who I do it to.
That's all I'll ever do.

Dear Daddy

You probably feel I'm ungrateful
Because you've done so many things for me
But, honestly, I am thankful
Because you truly were there for me
No, you're not perfect
Yes, I have my flaws
I hope helping me was worth it
Life's not a game, I can't push pause
I know I can't rewind
I know I can't fast forward
I can't change time
I hope I'm taking a step forward
Leaving you is not easy
Actually, its pretty hard
I love you, you're my daddy
Even though you act like my body guard
You've done so much to get me back
And I feel bad for leaving
But, I promise I won't slack
If I do, you can give me a beating :)
I know you'll still be here for me
But I just need to add,
That I really love you
And you'll always be my dad