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I walked right past you
And sat by the door
You looked at me
Then looked some more
I looked back at you
Then finally
You walked over
And sat with me
I got closer
Then took off my hat
I turned to you
Put my arm behind your back
I was finally getting to hold you
I was finally getting to be with you
But then I woke up
And I wasnt sure what to do
I should have known
It was just a dream
You're so far away
We won't ever be

Why cant I love you?

Why is this so hard?
Why cant I love you?
Why can't everything just be,
The way we want it to?

Why cant I feel,
The way Im supposed to feel?
When we noth know,
This is the real deal

We know this is how it is.
We're suppposed to be together.
This is the right way.
We're supposed to last forever.

You love me so much.
And we're perfect for each other.
I want to love you too.
We belong with one another.

Why is this so hard?
Why cant I love you?
Why cant everything just be,
The way we want it to?

I want to cry

I want to cry
I dont know why
But I dont know what to do

My hearts has died
I dont know why
But I just want to see you

I want to lie
I dont know why
But I want to be there too

I want to fight
I dont know why
But I'd do anything for you

I want to cry
I dont know why
But I dont know what to do

Abandonment

A product of Abandonment
Thats what I am. Thats who I am.
Thats all I'll ever be.
Creater of Abandonment
Thats what I do. You're who I do it to.
Thats all I'll ever do.

You come to me to be with me.
But I'll leave you in the end.
Not for something better,
But for something in my head.

I go to you to be with you.
But, you'll leave me in the end.
Everyone does it, you'll do it too.
Maybe for a reason thats totally pretend.

Abandon Me, Abandon You.
Abandon both us two.
Abandon her. Abandon Him.
Abandon both of them.

A product of abandonment.
Thats what I am. Thats who I am.
Thats all I'll ever be.
Creater of abandonment.
Thats what I do. You're who I do it to.
That's all I'll ever do.

Dear Daddy

You probably feel I'm ungrateful
Because you've done so many things for me
But, honestly, I am thankful
Because you truly were there for me
No, you're not perfect
Yes, I have my flaws
I hope helping me was worth it
Life's not a game, I can't push pause
I know I can't rewind
I know I can't fast forward
I can't change time
I hope I'm taking a step forward
Leaving you is not easy
Actually, its pretty hard
I love you, you're my daddy
Even though you act like my body guard
You've done so much to get me back
And I feel bad for leaving
But, I promise I won't slack
If I do, you can give me a beating :)
I know you'll still be here for me
But I just need to add,
That I really love you
And you'll always be my dad

Kidnap

Okay so today
I decided to rob a bank
I stole a cop car
And yes I got away
I got the money for you
Of course I will get some too
You tell me to share it
When I ask what I should do
Whats next on my list
What else should I get
Its time to kidnap
This you wont forget
Im gona kidnap you
But what else could I do
I guess its time for torture
But only cuz you told me to
How will I do this
Ill make you a promise
Im not giving you back
And ill seal that with a kiss
Now Im on the run
Haha that was fun
You know Im just joking
But still dont tell no one ;)

Dont Hurt Me

Im putting my trust in you
I hope that it works out
Please dont hurt me
I couldnt handle that now
I was hurt before
It was not a fun thing
I dont like it very much
So please just dont hurt me
I like you, I really do
I think about you all the time
You are my distraction
And I want you in my life
I feel like you'll protect me
Cuz you dont like it when im hurt
When I wake up in the morning
I think about you first
Im putting my trust in you
I hope that it works out
Please dont hurt me
I couldnt handle that now