Go Ahead

Touch me, do it
Insult me, do it
Disrespect me one more time
Go ahead
I'm going to go off on you
Like a ticking bomb
I'm waiting

Rap your arm around my waist
Go ahead
Watch me rip it right off

Text me one more time
Say you wanna see a picture
Go ahead
The only thing you'll see for the next week
Is the imprint of my fist on your face

Hit my butt one more time
Go ahead
My foot will do the same to yours

Touch me, do it
Insult me, do it
Disrespect me one more time
Go ahead
I'm going to go off on you
Like a ticking bomb
I'm waiting

I'm sitting here
Ho ahead
Make me mad

Be a real man
Don't be a stupid little boy
Back off while you've got the chance
This is a warning

Touch me, do it
Insult me, do it
Disrespect me one more time
Go ahead
I'm going to go off on you
Like a ticking bomb
I'm waiting

Moderately Depressed

Moderately Depressed
A side of panic attacks
Time to give it a rest

It's not so severe
That I hate life
But that's what I fear

It's not so mild
That I can just ignore it
My brain is going wild

I'm losing all my interests
Nothing really makes me happy
Happiness- I miss it.

Fake smiles and fake laughs
Can you tell that somethings wrong?
Good things- they never last

Moderately Depressed
A side of panic attacks
Time to give life a rest

I don't

I hate this. I hate this.
Do you know how much I hate you?
I hate this. I hate this.
So much I think I love you.

I can't stand it. I can't stand it.
I can't stand to be around you.
I can't stand it. I can't stand it.
How all I want is to be with you.

I don't like this. I don't like this.
Do you know how much I don't like you?
I don't like this. I don't liek this.
All I feel is love for you.

I don't want it. I don't want it.
I don't want to be around you.
I don't want it. I don't want it.
I don't want to want to be with you.

Perfectly Content

I saw your face again
Everything went wrong
I was perfectly content
With everything until then
You brought back memories
That haven't been explored in so long
Time passes by so fast
I cant understand it
But I know that I hate it
I want to go back in time
I want to relive my life
Help me
Help me do this
If it wasn't for seeing you again
If it wasn't for hugging you again
If it wasn't for hearing you again
I'd still be perfectly content

......

I walked right past you
And sat by the door
You looked at me
Then looked some more
I looked back at you
Then finally
You walked over
And sat with me
I got closer
Then took off my hat
I turned to you
Put my arm behind your back
I was finally getting to hold you
I was finally getting to be with you
But then I woke up
And I wasnt sure what to do
I should have known
It was just a dream
You're so far away
We won't ever be

Why cant I love you?

Why is this so hard?
Why cant I love you?
Why can't everything just be,
The way we want it to?

Why cant I feel,
The way Im supposed to feel?
When we noth know,
This is the real deal

We know this is how it is.
We're suppposed to be together.
This is the right way.
We're supposed to last forever.

You love me so much.
And we're perfect for each other.
I want to love you too.
We belong with one another.

Why is this so hard?
Why cant I love you?
Why cant everything just be,
The way we want it to?

I want to cry

I want to cry
I dont know why
But I dont know what to do

My hearts has died
I dont know why
But I just want to see you

I want to lie
I dont know why
But I want to be there too

I want to fight
I dont know why
But I'd do anything for you

I want to cry
I dont know why
But I dont know what to do

Abandonment

A product of Abandonment
Thats what I am. Thats who I am.
Thats all I'll ever be.
Creater of Abandonment
Thats what I do. You're who I do it to.
Thats all I'll ever do.

You come to me to be with me.
But I'll leave you in the end.
Not for something better,
But for something in my head.

I go to you to be with you.
But, you'll leave me in the end.
Everyone does it, you'll do it too.
Maybe for a reason thats totally pretend.

Abandon Me, Abandon You.
Abandon both us two.
Abandon her. Abandon Him.
Abandon both of them.

A product of abandonment.
Thats what I am. Thats who I am.
Thats all I'll ever be.
Creater of abandonment.
Thats what I do. You're who I do it to.
That's all I'll ever do.

Dear Daddy

You probably feel I'm ungrateful
Because you've done so many things for me
But, honestly, I am thankful
Because you truly were there for me
No, you're not perfect
Yes, I have my flaws
I hope helping me was worth it
Life's not a game, I can't push pause
I know I can't rewind
I know I can't fast forward
I can't change time
I hope I'm taking a step forward
Leaving you is not easy
Actually, its pretty hard
I love you, you're my daddy
Even though you act like my body guard
You've done so much to get me back
And I feel bad for leaving
But, I promise I won't slack
If I do, you can give me a beating :)
I know you'll still be here for me
But I just need to add,
That I really love you
And you'll always be my dad

Kidnap

Okay so today
I decided to rob a bank
I stole a cop car
And yes I got away
I got the money for you
Of course I will get some too
You tell me to share it
When I ask what I should do
Whats next on my list
What else should I get
Its time to kidnap
This you wont forget
Im gona kidnap you
But what else could I do
I guess its time for torture
But only cuz you told me to
How will I do this
Ill make you a promise
Im not giving you back
And ill seal that with a kiss
Now Im on the run
Haha that was fun
You know Im just joking
But still dont tell no one ;)

Dont Hurt Me

Im putting my trust in you
I hope that it works out
Please dont hurt me
I couldnt handle that now
I was hurt before
It was not a fun thing
I dont like it very much
So please just dont hurt me
I like you, I really do
I think about you all the time
You are my distraction
And I want you in my life
I feel like you'll protect me
Cuz you dont like it when im hurt
When I wake up in the morning
I think about you first
Im putting my trust in you
I hope that it works out
Please dont hurt me
I couldnt handle that now

Let Me Cry On You

Please let me cry on you
cuz i dont know wat to do
please talk to me
even if you cant see
please take time out
to hear me when i shout
please dont tell me to hush
im just going through so much

I need to see you,
hear you, be with you
anything to make me feel safe
sum1 to make everything ok
im so confused
on wat i should do
so much is piled on me
i feel like i cant breath

Dont bring this back up
i just need a hug
dont just hear me speak
please just talk to me
give me sum advice
just so i can survive
i do need you right now
but dont try to make me smile

Please let me cry on you
cuz i dont know wat to do
please talk to me
even if you cant see
please take time out
to hear me when i shout
please dont tell me to hush
im just going through so much

My Decision

I feel like i could throw up
i really dont wana grow up
i dont know what im supposed to do
and now im supposed to choose
why is this my choice
do u wana hear my voice
i hate this so much
i am so not tough
i just cant handle this
there is no throwing fits
theres no squeezing my way out
i want to scream and shout
if i could have one wish
this would b my wish
everything to go my way
just this 1 time, this 1 day
ill do anything you ask
ill do any complex task
help me with what i need
ill get on my knees and plead
i need some one to talk to
i just dont know what to do!
I dont know who to be.
but this is my decision and it is up to me

Im Lost

Lost in Decisions
Lost in Emotions
Lost in Truth and Lies
Lost in my own Mind
Lost in Life
Lost in the World
Lost in Thought
LOST

What I tell myself vs- the truth

This one is different- Guys are all the same
Its them, not me- it is me cuz im making excuses for them
Everything is perfect- Nothings ever what it seems
This person will never hurt me- everyone will hurt me at one point.
I can trust you- maybe. but that doesnt mean I should be telling you all this
Love is the best feeling in the world- we dont even know what love is
This friendship is pure- Thats what we think now
We're perfect for eachother- no we're not.
I'll never get over this- I will, but it'll take time.
I understand- I dont know anything.
I wanna hear this- No i dont because its gonna hurt me but ill let you tell me to make yourself feel better
I am and I do what I want- I am and I do what everyone else wants
Always- It'll fade
Forever- Never.

Romeo and Juliet (an old poem) part 2

I love you with all my heart.
I wish to see you everyday.
I wish not to be apart.
I love you in everyway.
But you are Romeo.
And I am Juliet.
And now you must go.
Or you will always regret.
I would risk it all.
Risk it all for you.
But I wish not to fall.
'Cause what if its not true.
If you change your mind.
I am in a hole.
Not able to find.
My place or my home.
I would be in trouble.
But you would be just fine.
Now lets be humble.
Its alot worse than whats in mind.

Romeo and Juliet (an old poem) part 1

The way I feel for u, Ive felt for no other.
I <3 you so strongly. I know you must feel smothered.
But, when you look at me, I feel something inside.
A big burst of glee, That I cannot hide.
I wish to know you forever. I want you to never leave.
We must be together. You're the other side of me.
My hand, I want you to hold. And look into my eyes.
But you are Romeo. And we are both dispised.
I am Juliet. And forever may I weep.
We should have never met. For we shall never be.
I will move away. And you will move on.
I will try to do the same. But it will be very hard.

Sleepless

I lay here. Sleepless.
I sleep. Dreamless.
I dream. Lonely.
I am. Lonely.

I lay awake at night.
Just trying to fall asleep.
I had a long day.
And I am beat.
My eyes are heavy.
Everything's still.
Yet I lay awake here.
Nothing feels real.
It works when,
I write or read.
I lay down.
And try to sleep.
But yet I'm still awake.
And now I count sheep.

I lay here. Sleepless.
I sleep. Dreamless.
I dream. Lonely.
I am. Lonely.

No one. No one. No place. No place.

Nowhere I can go. Nowhere far enough away.
No one I can be with to make everything okay.
No one. No one. No one is there.
No place. No place. This is just not fair.
I want to cry. But I'll feel stupid if I do.
I can't talk to no one. No, not even you.
I gotta learn to keep to myself. Can't tell anyone.
There's no one I can trust. Yes, that's right, no one.
I give my heart away. I don't know why I do it.
You can't know why. 'Cause I never even knew it.
Things are going fine. Of course everything is great.
Everything is wonderful. Until it starts to change.
But, then, everything comes back. I start to think again.
About my troubles and my worries. All my pain within.
I wish that I could go to some far away place.
I wish that I could be free to escape.
Somehow I always tend to get stuck here.
Trapped with all of my questions and all of my fear.
Nowhere I can go. Nowhere far enough away.
No one I can be with to make everything okay.
No one. No one. There is no one there.
No place. No place. This is just not fair.

Im a Jerk

Sometimes I feel like im a jerk
Its just the way whats in me works
You'd think I would be happy
'Cause everything seems to go my way
But instead I am ungreatful
'Cause what i do is hurtful
Or maybe its just in my head
I say that to myself again
Maybe Im just a conceded brat
Taking advantage of all attached
I should just be isolated
'Cause I am truely hated
Not by anyone else
Just mainly by myself
When my happiness is shown
I only think of my own
I dont realize whats around me
Until I am unhappy
Then I search for a crutch
I ask for too much
Im just a big fat jerk
Nothing I do will work

Who is he?

Who is he?
Someone to talk to About anything
Someone to laugh with About everything
Someone to share All my dreams with
Someone to tell All my secrets
Someone that has Alot in common with me
Someone that hates All that is disney
Who is he?
He doesn't say "pretty" But instead, "not ugly"
He's my assurance That Im a good influence
He cares about my feelings And with what Im dealing
He is full of jokes He's hilarious folks!
He always makes me smile But I wont see him for a while
The things he says are cheesy Around him, being myself is easy
Who is he again?
He is my best friend

Happy Birthday

She's quiet, but loud
She's out and proud
She's nice, but mean
She's cool and clean
The best part about it,
is that she's my friend
I'll be here for her
until the end.

You

You took the depression out of my life.
You came in and gave me light.
You brought with you happiness.
All of those thing- I will miss.
You picked me up when I was down.
You completely turned my life around.
You were my safe place.
The only one I have, in this case.
I felt totally comfortable around you.
If there was something I could say or something I could do.
I wish I could have you back into my arms.
So I can feel your skin and its warmth.
I want to look you in the eye.
And see the smile that arrives.
I want you to be mine again.
You are my best friend.
Maybe in the future,
We'll continue this further.

I love... You

I love it when you look at me, It makes me want to smile
I love to look back at you, It makes every day worth while
I love to feel the touch of your hand, It makes me feel safe
I love to know when I can see you, It makes me not want to wait
I love to hear you talk to me, or just to hear your voice
I love to know when you're with me that it is your choice
I love it when you walk by me so we can be together
I love how you tell me things that involve forever
I love how you always make me feel so good about myself
I love how you are always so conceded in yourself
I guess what I'm trying to say is I love everything you do
Really and truely, I am in love with you

Secret Stalker :)

Secret Stalker is my name
Stalking you is my game
I love you more than you could ever know
But its a secret, it cant ever show

hahaha i luv u (3

Family

Family is like a gift
You love it when you get them
Family is like a gift
You hate that you can't return them

Love

Love is something magical.
Nothing can replace it.
Love is so emotional.
But who could ever hate it?

Love may bring you pain.
Love may bring you sorrow.
Nothing you can't gain.
Nothing you can borrow.

Love can make you cry.
Love can make you mad.
Love can make you fly.
Love is something you must have.

Love is something magical.
Nothing can replace it.
Love is so emotional.
But who could ever hate it?