Let Me Cry On You

Please let me cry on you
cuz i dont know wat to do
please talk to me
even if you cant see
please take time out
to hear me when i shout
please dont tell me to hush
im just going through so much

I need to see you,
hear you, be with you
anything to make me feel safe
sum1 to make everything ok
im so confused
on wat i should do
so much is piled on me
i feel like i cant breath

Dont bring this back up
i just need a hug
dont just hear me speak
please just talk to me
give me sum advice
just so i can survive
i do need you right now
but dont try to make me smile

Please let me cry on you
cuz i dont know wat to do
please talk to me
even if you cant see
please take time out
to hear me when i shout
please dont tell me to hush
im just going through so much

My Decision

I feel like i could throw up
i really dont wana grow up
i dont know what im supposed to do
and now im supposed to choose
why is this my choice
do u wana hear my voice
i hate this so much
i am so not tough
i just cant handle this
there is no throwing fits
theres no squeezing my way out
i want to scream and shout
if i could have one wish
this would b my wish
everything to go my way
just this 1 time, this 1 day
ill do anything you ask
ill do any complex task
help me with what i need
ill get on my knees and plead
i need some one to talk to
i just dont know what to do!
I dont know who to be.
but this is my decision and it is up to me

Im Lost

Lost in Decisions
Lost in Emotions
Lost in Truth and Lies
Lost in my own Mind
Lost in Life
Lost in the World
Lost in Thought
LOST

What I tell myself vs- the truth

This one is different- Guys are all the same
Its them, not me- it is me cuz im making excuses for them
Everything is perfect- Nothings ever what it seems
This person will never hurt me- everyone will hurt me at one point.
I can trust you- maybe. but that doesnt mean I should be telling you all this
Love is the best feeling in the world- we dont even know what love is
This friendship is pure- Thats what we think now
We're perfect for eachother- no we're not.
I'll never get over this- I will, but it'll take time.
I understand- I dont know anything.
I wanna hear this- No i dont because its gonna hurt me but ill let you tell me to make yourself feel better
I am and I do what I want- I am and I do what everyone else wants
Always- It'll fade
Forever- Never.

Romeo and Juliet (an old poem) part 2

I love you with all my heart.
I wish to see you everyday.
I wish not to be apart.
I love you in everyway.
But you are Romeo.
And I am Juliet.
And now you must go.
Or you will always regret.
I would risk it all.
Risk it all for you.
But I wish not to fall.
'Cause what if its not true.
If you change your mind.
I am in a hole.
Not able to find.
My place or my home.
I would be in trouble.
But you would be just fine.
Now lets be humble.
Its alot worse than whats in mind.

Romeo and Juliet (an old poem) part 1

The way I feel for u, Ive felt for no other.
I <3 you so strongly. I know you must feel smothered.
But, when you look at me, I feel something inside.
A big burst of glee, That I cannot hide.
I wish to know you forever. I want you to never leave.
We must be together. You're the other side of me.
My hand, I want you to hold. And look into my eyes.
But you are Romeo. And we are both dispised.
I am Juliet. And forever may I weep.
We should have never met. For we shall never be.
I will move away. And you will move on.
I will try to do the same. But it will be very hard.

Sleepless

I lay here. Sleepless.
I sleep. Dreamless.
I dream. Lonely.
I am. Lonely.

I lay awake at night.
Just trying to fall asleep.
I had a long day.
And I am beat.
My eyes are heavy.
Everything's still.
Yet I lay awake here.
Nothing feels real.
It works when,
I write or read.
I lay down.
And try to sleep.
But yet I'm still awake.
And now I count sheep.

I lay here. Sleepless.
I sleep. Dreamless.
I dream. Lonely.
I am. Lonely.

No one. No one. No place. No place.

Nowhere I can go. Nowhere far enough away.
No one I can be with to make everything okay.
No one. No one. No one is there.
No place. No place. This is just not fair.
I want to cry. But I'll feel stupid if I do.
I can't talk to no one. No, not even you.
I gotta learn to keep to myself. Can't tell anyone.
There's no one I can trust. Yes, that's right, no one.
I give my heart away. I don't know why I do it.
You can't know why. 'Cause I never even knew it.
Things are going fine. Of course everything is great.
Everything is wonderful. Until it starts to change.
But, then, everything comes back. I start to think again.
About my troubles and my worries. All my pain within.
I wish that I could go to some far away place.
I wish that I could be free to escape.
Somehow I always tend to get stuck here.
Trapped with all of my questions and all of my fear.
Nowhere I can go. Nowhere far enough away.
No one I can be with to make everything okay.
No one. No one. There is no one there.
No place. No place. This is just not fair.

Im a Jerk

Sometimes I feel like im a jerk
Its just the way whats in me works
You'd think I would be happy
'Cause everything seems to go my way
But instead I am ungreatful
'Cause what i do is hurtful
Or maybe its just in my head
I say that to myself again
Maybe Im just a conceded brat
Taking advantage of all attached
I should just be isolated
'Cause I am truely hated
Not by anyone else
Just mainly by myself
When my happiness is shown
I only think of my own
I dont realize whats around me
Until I am unhappy
Then I search for a crutch
I ask for too much
Im just a big fat jerk
Nothing I do will work

Who is he?

Who is he?
Someone to talk to About anything
Someone to laugh with About everything
Someone to share All my dreams with
Someone to tell All my secrets
Someone that has Alot in common with me
Someone that hates All that is disney
Who is he?
He doesn't say "pretty" But instead, "not ugly"
He's my assurance That Im a good influence
He cares about my feelings And with what Im dealing
He is full of jokes He's hilarious folks!
He always makes me smile But I wont see him for a while
The things he says are cheesy Around him, being myself is easy
Who is he again?
He is my best friend